Queen of the Damned

Queen of the Damn

“After God crated the world he made two people out of dirt. A man named Adam and a woman named Lilith. The two knew they must mate, but Lilith refused to be on the bottom.
‘I am made of the same dust as you’ she screamed at him as he grabbed her wrists and forced her down.
‘You are beneath me because you are weaker…’ She uttered the forbidden name of god and ran away. Far far away where no one could find her except for one man…Lucifer.
She had met him at what the humans now called “The Red Sea”. He was beautiful and the black star tattooed on his shoulder was the only sign that he was even a fallen angels. It has been the first time in a long…long time that she felt safe.”

She knew she had done this to herself and she regretted nothing of it, but even so she was scared. She was scared to death though, but she had never let him know this. She had never showed this to anyone in fact. Even if she let her fears been shown it wouldn’t have mattered. It still needed to be done.
Lilith was not how humans always depicted her. She was a young teenage girl. Maybe sixteen; seventeen at oldest. She was a strange woman and it was surprising to some demons that she was what God had wanted to create as the first woman. She had silvery hair and big round crimson eyes. She wasn’t very tall either; only five foot at highest. She had sickly pale skin and her limbs were perfectly straight, but lacked muscle. And she was not nearly as beautiful as Barbelo- The satan of Wrath. A big breasted woman with long curly cinnamon hair and dark blue eyes and wore pretty dresses made of spider’s thread and black leather. Lilith refused to wear such things.
She wore strangely bight colored cloths like blue dresses made of the dye of the oceans in the human world. She wore no jewelry and tried to avoid meetings with other demons and she had wings. She did not dye them the colors of ink like Lucifer. No, her wings were a crimson color like her eyes, but no one dared to bother her. She was now Lucifer’s bride, wife and worse, his mate.
She knew she had to play this out carefully or he would kill her. This man was nothing like Adam who was just someone God had put down on the Earth with no powers. This man was once God’s favorite angel and was very powerful now. She simply was playing hard to get and this entertained Lucifer for only a few months, but now he wanted her.
She knew she had done this to herself, but she was still scared to death. The man that would soon be coming down the halls and into their room terrified her. She never let this on knowing that she would be considered weak if she did. She just couldn’t let him see her like a scared weakling.
She had defined God so what was so hard about this man? He was just another man that God had created unknowing he would betray him. She felt a smirk spread across her lips thinking that they were alike in that sense. God had created her thinking that she would obey when she actually rebelled against him. She flinched though remembering the memory of the angels that God had sent after her.
She remembered their cold angry hands forcing her onto the ground. One angel who, like most of God’s angels, was beautiful. Blonde curls falling over his shoulders and eyes as clear as the clean salt filled ocean. The angel pulled out a silver dagger. It was truly dazzling, the blade had a carving of the rose on it and the sharpen end glowed under the light of the sun. She didn’t know though that such a breathtaking blade would be craving a black star into her shoulder. Then they simply left calling her a fool for disobeying God and Adam as she laid there bleeding.
“Do you wish to die woman or do you want to come with me?” Those were the first words that Lucifer ever said to her. She remembered looking up and staring at the tall man. He looked like he was eighteen years in human time, but she wasn’t quite sure and didn’t dare ask. He must have been six foot and his dark cloths easily traced out beautiful muscles. His dark ink black eyes into hers and she honestly felt at peace. His face was strong and held no emotion on it and his skin was moonlight pale unlike hers. His hair went to his shoulders and was messy. His bangs falling in his eyes and his face unmoved by her horsed reply.
He had taken her here and he expected her like Adam once expected her to be: mate/lover/wife whatever humans called it. She didn’t like it, but it was hard to deny Lucifer. She…she wasn’t sure what she was going to do. He did not own her and that he was going to learn tonight.
The home- if you could really call it that- they lived in was made of black sparkling stones with statues of monster she had never seen. It was supposedly come from the ideas that humans created such castles. The castle was huge and Lilith was often lost until surprise, surprise- Lucifer had found her. He had seemed to find it very amusing when he saw that she was lost and she found it hard to believe he was truly the lord of Hell.
It was hard for her to believe it for many reasons. Lucifer was always acclaimed to have horns and one of the ugliest creatures on the earth after he had fallen from the heavens above. His first name or true name was Lucifel which meant bright star at a time. Then he changed it to Lucifer. Not that wasn’t what made him so hard to believe to be the ruler of Hell, but he was generally a gentle man.  Or was that around her?
Once one of the fallen angels who turned out to be Belial told her once that he was a cruel man except around her. The blonde haired fallen angel had smiled wickedly as he said that he was utterly and truly in love with her. She never did like that statement. No one had ever fallen in love with her not even Adam had done that. That of course was because they were to start and create humanity. She smiled at the thought of how bitterly disappointed he was when she left.    
The only other room she felt happy or comfortable in was the library. She felt safe and hidden in the words that were not hidden by God or men like Adam. He would also find her there, but she never took any notice of him until she was finished what she was reading. It was strange how sometimes he would gracefully run his fingers over her fingers. How little shocks of electric thunder would run up her spin.
She never felt those sparks with Adam and she wondered if they were normal. She didn’t dare ask why that happened. It was like thunder in the sky and then the rain would suddenly start to fall. Beautiful clear drops landing on the ground. Pure and clear. Nothing blurry, nothing smudged. Just clear, simple, and untainted.
She never felt untainted. She always felt tainted especially when Adam would insist she be on bottom when they made love. She remembered feeling the grass underneath her back and the icy rain sliding off her skin as his fingers danced across her skin. It was never beautiful or pure. Just…another process she had to deal with. Sex was just something she had to do at one point, but she wanted to be someone’s equal.  
Their room…she shuddered at the thought. She hated it more then anyone would believe. The bed was made of black silk and seemed perfect for Lucifer, but for her? No, she hated it period, but she slept in it anyway. The room was fairly large with a door that led to the closet and another door that led through the castle. The only thing she even liked about the fact Lucifer had given her roses that she proudly kept in a blue vase she found once. They never seem to die and that made her even happier.
She heard the door open and she looked over to see him. Handsome and beautiful. Most women would have jumped at the chance to sleep with him, but she just couldn’t do it. She wouldn’t do it. Not until she was ready and he was going to learn that tonight.
“Lilith,” he called out for her as he sat on the bed. His arms open to her, wanting for her to fall into them like a fairytale princess would fall into her prince’s arms. She was never going to be that princess of course. She was a woman who wanted power and a life that she would be happy in.
She simply sat next to him and his arms went limp to his side. She stared at him wondering if she should try an excuse. No, she had to get this done and over with and if he was going to kill her.
“What can I do to make you happy? To feel loved?”
Huh?
She blinked in a amazement and shock. She wasn’t sure what to respond to his words and wasn’t sure if she even wanted to. They could be some kind of promise or just a simple trick. Her arm twitched a bit and wondered if she should react or just pretend she hadn’t heard him.
She opened her mouth finally, “you can do nothing.” He smirked at her response.
“You’re lying.” Damn, had it been that evident? She looked at him and then his large hand. She was always surprised to find them soft and gentle even though he was God’s traitor and was considered worse then Judas. His fingers twitched like they wanted to hold something and she could feel his eyes burning into her head and finally looked up.  
She could get killed, but if she didn’t say it then she wouldn’t be her. She would be some other woman. A woman like Eve who simply bowed down to Adam no questions asked and the thought made her shiver with disgust.  
Her mouth opened not caring what it said and what were the consequences to them, “I am your equal and I want to be treated as such,” he had done nothing to degrade her so she was not surprised to see the look of surprise, “and I want to go to the human world once in awhile. To see the sun instead of being stuck in this castle. I want to explore this world and enjoy living the life I have chose and I…”
What else could she possibly want? She wasn’t sure. She looked at him and concentrated on him. What could she want? She looked at him for a long moment.
“Lilith, what do you want?” His icy voice was the same voice he used when he was doing business with the other satans.
A person could want a million things and never get anything. She didn’t want a million things just at that exact moment just one…she just wasn’t sure what that was.
He got up, “I’ll leave tonight if you want.” She grabbed his icy hand and pulled him back down.
“I want you.”
She was shocked by her own words, but how could this be? She was Lilith. She didn’t want any man, but that was a lie. She didn’t want to be alone. No one wanted to be alone, but she didn’t want him. She just felt angry with herself. She always knew what she wanted and now all of sudden she didn’t. That made no sense.
“I don’t understand,” she hissed angrily finally letting some frustration out. She felt like ripping her hair out of her head and dig her finger nails into her arms until crimson tears flowed down her arm. She couldn’t stand that she couldn’t figure this out.
“Maybe you should explore to understand it.” Lucifer’s emotionless face leaned in closer to hers. She felt her heart stop and her cheeks heat up. How strange, could someone really have this much control over her? No, that couldn’t be possible. She felt her eyes slide shut, but she tried to fight against it.
A strange warm feeling burst through her chest. She felt calm as his lips gently engulfed hers. The sudden added weight caused her to fall on her back. His fingers laced into her hair as her arms wrapped around his neck. The taste of wine exploded into her mouth as his fingers danced on her skin.
That night was blissful.

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A sunless sky existed in Hell, but Lilith still woke up. Feeling some sense of time. Her sensitive nerve endings first felt warmth. Not the bitter coldness that she was used to. Unconsciously she moved closer to the warmth and curled up into a tight ball. She finally opened her eyes to see a peaceful version of the lord of Hell. An arm was wrapped tightly around her waist and it seemed determined to stay there.
How strange. His hands were icy cold and yet the rest of him was so entirely warm.
She felt…She felt happy. She had never felt so happy and so content with herself. Was this what she had been wanting all this time? Yes, she wanted independence, but she wanted peace within her restless soul. She held out her right arm and tried to reach for something, but was welcomed by the cold air surround them. Another arm that did not belong to her grabbed her hand and laced his fingers with hers.
“Don’t you have somewhere to be?” She choked out her question. She didn’t want him to leave yet. She felt so peaceful…nothing could describe the feeling overwhelming her chest. The feeling was nearly choking her.
“No.” An obvious lie, but she could live wit her. The choking feeling left and she nuzzled in closer to his neck and kissed the moon light colored skin. He purred in response and smiled peacefully.
“I never felt so much at peace.” An honest answer and she nodded to his words in agreement. She looked at their laced fingers and the warm feeling in her chest burst.
“Did you just smile?”
Lucifer’s voice took her off guard and tried to hide her face by nuzzling into his neck closer if that were humanly- or demonly possible.
“Fine don’t let me see it, but one day I will.”
Lilith grinned evilly knowing full well that he would. Just not today.